lover|mother

Its a sinking/swimming/warming thing
like I have water in my chest sometimes
that just hits boil point
wether a moment of sorrow or pure joy
or even just something clicking in my head
changing me
 my eyes water every time

I recently chopped off all my hair
that usually means I’ve lost my rocker
and this melting thing I spoke of
happens a lot lately

I get overwhelmed easily
and I am now a bit
with a wedding in the works
and everything going so smoothly
I don’t understand why

Unfortunately I can’t help myself if I don’t know whats wrong

knowing is half the battle,
but Brent has been diffusing me
and its incredible how much better I feel today
looking back at yesterday
(when I had a mini melt down)
only driving home even more so that
he is the “one” I’ve sought after

I feel so lucky to have so much right now
its been a long time since I’ve had more than just a couple things I could smile about at one time
So many people, though most far, far away from me physically, that care
and who help me stay on track
A wonderfully progressing relationship with my girl
and a wedding coming up in March

thats right, March.

:D